Letting go…

I’ve always been intrigued by Buddhism. And, lately, I've found myself searching about it as I’m looking to find some answers for questions with big question marks. I also picked up a book I read awhile ago, If the Buddha dated, and am finding that by re-reading it, some questions are somewhat answered.

I guess in our search for love, we sometimes lose ourselves as we look for what we think we want in others. And then, when we think we’ve found it, we try to hold on to it, even when what got us there in the first place is clearly not there anymore. But, why?

In my case, and as the book says “longing for a lover is an expression of longing to awaken our hearts, to know love”. Funny enough, that’s what I lost sight of. I wanted to awaken my heart, know love, but as my fears started blinding me, I also lost clearness of reality.

Although it took my awhile to canalize my emotions, I’ve let go of the anger, I’ve let go of the questions, I’ve let go of the fear… there’s a reason for everything, and that’s what I need to remind myself of.

“Buddhism is about self-knowledge, a fearless exploration of all we are, so we can be friends with ourselves. Dating with a Buddhist consciousness means a willingness to confront anything inside that kindles fear or anxiety”.

I’m not afraid… I’ve let go…